Yay work.

I have now worked 3 shifts and a total of 20 hours at Dollarama. You guys, the job is so boring, I cannot express. I've only been up to till once, which was more interesting and made the time pass faster, but otherwise, I just walk around the store ALL FUCKING DAY and pick up stuff that the customers leave in the wrong aisles, or break, or open. You wouldn't believe how much stuff Dollarama throws out in a day. Perfectly good items are in the garbage if the packaging is ripped. Today I got the "priviledge" of re-filling the cooler, which just about broke my back. I had to get these big-ass crates of Coke, Sprite, etc. off this huge pile in the back room and load them onto a trolley and then head over there and re-fill. Also difficult working around the customers. *sighs* This job is making me lose faith in humanity, honestly.

There were these two girls who were so obviously shoplifting when I was heading to the back room for break today (I mean, seriously. One girl's like, "I don't care if I get caught hahaha") but I was like, "Fuck it. I'm on my break and I'm not dealing with this shit." So I didn't and the girls managed to steal OMG CHOCOLATE. Which is no big deal and the employees do it all the time. But I never told you that, so shhh.

The people there are really cool though, and people just randomly start talking to me, so that makes me happy because I don't have to start the conversation. The keyholder this evening is super cool. The one on the weekend is also cool, but she's pregnant and therefore hormonal :p. I never want to work during the day though...those keyholders don't seem very nice :/.

Really though, you wouldn't think walking around all day would be so exhausting, but it really is. And my legs are absolutely killing me. Oh well, as far as first jobs go, this one's pretty cool. My co-workers are nice, the managers are cool, the job's easy, if redundant and boring, and fuck, even the till is easy. There's like three buttons you press. Yay for everything being a dollar! The only tough part about being a cashier is remembering the 2 for 1$ sales. But oh well. This Saturday should be interesting since I only know one of the other people working well enough. We'll see, I guess. It's a seven hour shift at that :/. Hopefully on Friday I'll get to practice at cash some more so that I can just do that on Saturday. Seriously though, my manager from this evening is so cool XD.

Oh yes, I'm attempting to make a wallpaper in Photoshop. It's not going so well lol. Also, keep your eyes peeled for some video links in the near future as I'm making some more tribute vids. Icons have now increased in number and I'm off to write more fanfic!

Currently Listening: Another Brick in Hadrian's Wall by Hans Zimmer (King Arthur Soundtrack)

[Instrumental]

Batman = coolest superhero ever.

HOLY FUCK.

The Dark Knight = totally awesome!

Batman is the awesomest most kick-ass superhero EVAR.

Go see the movie NOW if you haven't already...got it?!

Ah happy endings.

Okay.

So I called dear darling Dollarama, and I've got my first hours for this weekend! This will piss my dad off since there's some gay family reunion at the lake. But alas and alack there's nought to be done. I wasn't going to refuse hours. And besides, I wouldn't have enjoyed myself at the faimly reunion. I always get the feeling that they don't actually consider me part of the family, and tbh I don't really consider myself to be either. I don't know them...at all. Even when I was a kid, I barely spent any time over there, except at Memère's, and I hadn't gone there for like five years before she died. And I haven't been back for two years until now. It's weird and annoying and the only person that actually talks to me is Collin. It's always about music and film stuff, which is cool. Those are interests we share.

So I just thought I'd share. All's well that ends well and all that. I'll have 14 hours in two days, so I'm off to a good start (hour-wise. Watch as I die because of just the working in general). Since, you know, if I get 30 hours a week, I'll have pretty much all the money I need by the end of this month (possibly short a couple hundred which my mom could front me).

I have in my head a lovely idea for a fanfic. Let me see if my twisted mind can get it to sound good. I don't know if it's obvious when reading (I really think it is though) my other fanfic, that I'm really not all bursting to the seams with creativity for that particular one anymore, but that is the case. Just for if you were wondering why it's not very good any longer. I'll try and up the quality, but I make no guarantees.

So, I am a stastics nerd. We have gone over this a couple times, right? That's why I have that flag counter thing. Not because I'm some creeper, lol, I just get curious. This is also why I so enjoy last.fm and the stats page on my fanfic and doing random comparisons in Myspace friend counts and what-have-you (that'll be familiar to anyone who has me on Facebook). This is why I get tripped out when there's like 70 views on my fanfic in one day, because I notice it generally sits at the 20-30 mark, and sometimes there's this huge burst where (the highest day) it goes up to 83, or 78 like the other day, or 54. You know what I mean though. And the stats page (this is why I love it) tells you what people searched for to find the fic, or what link they clicked to get here. Because as great as the flag counter is (seriously, super interesting), it doesn't say where you came from or how you found this, and you know curiosity and all that. So anyways, I was looking at the stats page on my fanfic today and noticed that there were 11 clicks from this here blog. So I came here and saw that many more Canadians had visited here. Where in the world did you all come from? Or are you all the same person? I know Shanel visited here this morning (technical morning), but she doesn't read my fanfic anymore, so it wasn't her that clicked the link.

I know that'll be a mystery that goes unsolved, I'm just musing is all.

I'm trying to reduce my use of caps. I noticed I do that a lot. Is that annoying? I don't know. It doesn't bother me, but it might bother others.

One last thing: can people please stop sending me forwarded e-mails?! Jesus. I hate them. I don't even read them. I just delete them as soon as I see that they were forwarded. If you want me to read it, then you have to erase that, and make sure the title isn't something like "If you don't send this back, I know you're not my friend" bullshit. I hate those things. Or those ones where if you don't forward to people, you'll die. Or the stupid idiotic ones saying we're going to have to pay for MSN. Thankfully I haven't gotten the MSN one yet this year. I guess my message finally got through when I forwarded that with my own message last year, didn't it? That I don't want those and they're a hoax. Honestly.

Random news of the day: The A letter on my keyboard is completely worn off, and the SNME and T letters aren't far behind. Particularly the S. It amuses me.

And yes, I'm listening to my 570 song playlist again.

By the way, is that Twitter widget messed up for everyone or just me?? O.o

Currently Listening: Decompression Period by Papa Roach

Here today, gone today.

Hurry up and wait.

I'm never there for you or me,

Can't you read the story of our lives?

Mildly (or not so mildly) annoying.

WOW.

WHAT THE FUCK.

So I was going pee (as people tend to do, you know) and the phone rings. I figure that whoever is calling will leave a message. WELL. Dollarama called. They didn't leave a message. WHAT THE FUCK. So they better call back (oh, please call back?) to give me my hours. SOMETIME WHEN I'M NOT IN THE BATHROOM KTHXBYE.

*big dramatic sigh* Not having any luck with that place.

Finishing up the chap, should be there shortly.

I have to clean my room today. Ugh. That's a project and a half.

Currently Listening: Done With You by Papa Roach

You've made my life completely miserable.

You drove the edge, you've caused me all this pain,

But I always loved you 'cause you're "oh-so-special".

I'm broken and I'm alone, and I cannot maintain.

Now I care for dead gardens *more Nightwishness*

There is DEFINITELY going to be a fanfic update tomorrow. I've already reached the amount of words I always try my best to reach and the chapter still isn't done. This chapter could be interpreted as having Tuomas/Anette vibes.The chapter after this (I don't know if it will be up by the end of this week, but it might) has some slight Jukka/Anette overtones. It isn't ever going to turn into a romance fic. I am going to make a note of this on the fanfic tomorrow as well.

So I was going through some pictures. And of course "some pictures" also includes the pictures from the Nightwish concert.
This picture just makes me so unbelievably happy (aside from my fugly arm blocking Tuomas).

Just look at how happy she is! Do you UNDERSTAND how awesome that concert was? I wish, I just wish wish wish that they had played She is my Sin, Sacrament of Wilderness or Sleeping Sun. They started playing Sleeping Sun only a few shows after this one. OH WELL. I got to see Come Cover Me and Dead to the World, so I should just be happy with that. And she had absolutely every reason to look SO INSANELY HAPPY, because it was too good to be true, I swear to god. Even Marco and Tuomas seemed surprised and delighted with how STUNNINGLY AWESOME she did at the end of Come Cover Me. The ballots are in, the tally's been counted, and the final result is: ANETTE KICKS YOUR ASS.

haha.

Seriously though, I just love that picture. It's so happy-making.

(5:21 PM) Sha says:
"Shanelly, when you said that Anette winked at us, did you mean US?! O.o Because that would be way too awesome for words. WAYYY too awesome." <--for the thosandth time yes Haha

"the thousandth time" she says, when she told me all of twice. BUT OMGGGGG!!! ANETTE WINKED AT US (it was probably just Shanel, actually)! EMPPU WINKED AT ME! MARCO GAVE ME METALHORNS! ANETTE PUT HER HAND ON MY FACE!

*dies*

I have been listening to the same 44 songs for like 3 days. But I'm happy with it.

While I'm here and you're here (if you're still here), go and check out Oomph!'s new single Beim ersten Mal tut's immer weh. The video is insanely brutal (but I'm totally going to watch the uncensored version when the release it on their Labyrinth game...and somehow find out what the fuck they're typing) for a music video. I mean, she cuts off the perv dude's TESTICLES. That's preeeeetttty damn sick. And also something you would never, ever, ever see in any North American bands' videos. So...RESPECT! to the Europeans for being ballsy.

I keep getting Beim ersten Mal tut's immer weh stuck in my head, and if it isn't that, then it's one of Papa Roach's new songs. OH GOD! Their new album is going to be soooooo good. I want it NOW. But I must be patient.

This time next year, I'm going to be graduated O.O. That is a SCARY thought.

Currently Listening: Dead Gardens by Nightwish

The story behind the painting I drew

Is already told.

No more tearstains on the pages of my diary.

Tired, but unable to give up

Since I'm responsible for the lives I saved.

The play is done.

The curtain's down.

The internet is a giant and scary place.

YOU GUYS.

EW.

YOU GUYS.

OMFG.

The internet is a horrible big place and you never know what the fuck you're going to find. I'm now profoundly disturbed and a bit freaked out, I admit. Okay, here's the story. I was sitting doing a bit of research for my fanfic and you wouldn't believe what I found...honestly. I can't believe this shit is just out there for public viewing. And I mean I found Anette's address O.O. Seriously, and a bunch of other random info. It wasn't some random Anette fansite or anything to do with Nightwish at all. It was like some Swedish newspaper thing and it listed a bunch of people in the municipality and info about them too, and I cannot be the only person who finds that incredibly creepy? Seriously, think about this. These are completely random people who probably have no fucking clue that their address and shit is on the internet for any creeper to find. It's just like that Canada411 website, where you can type in someone's name and get their address (assuming their phone number is listed - it is an official website after all). But then this leads the question of what other websites might have mine or my family's info on it? Anyways, I found it pretty freaky that her address is like RIGHT there if you search up the right words (and I'm not telling you what I searched for). That's pretty much an invitation for stalkers and creepers. I wonder if she or her (ex?)husband are even aware of it being there. I doubt it. I still don't understand WHY this website has this on there, since like I said, it's like a newspaper website, but I'm hoping I misunderstood. After all, Google automatic translation isn't always reliable O.O. Still. Wow. It seems pretty right and consistent with what very little Anette herself has said about where she lives. Man, she should do something about that. It's totally disturbing. Who knows what people could do with that information? I can't be the only one disturbed by this, can I? Because that just seems profoundly WRONG, especially since she's taking such measures to ensure the safety of her family. I feel bad for her, really, I do. I wouldn't ever be able to handle be famous. At least she's not as famous as those ICONS we all know of, like you know, Britney Spears or Brad Pitt or anything.

Enough of that though (IT'S FUCKING FREAKY). Go look at my DeviantArt page for my portrait drawings (I'm adding a link to the sidebar) if you're interested.

This fanfic chapter is just flying right by. Maybe we'll even have two updates this week :D.
And also, I've become totally enamored with the idea of a Jukka/Anette pairing. *is totally gonna write a fanfic for that*

Currently Listening: Time by Chantal Kreviazuk

Time, where did you go?

Why did you leave me here alone?

Wait, don't go so fast.

I'm missing the moments as they pass.

BLARGLEHAPPY

I. AM. HOME.

Thank god.

Anyways, I have to touch up my portrait a bit before I post a pic, since I noticed a few errors. I guess it's a question of if I'll even be ABLE to fix them. But we'll see.

Seriously, you have no idea how happy I am to be home.

And I'm having issues with Dollarama, i.e. THEY WON'T GIVE ME ANY FUCKING HOURS. So I'm looking into other jobs now, and turns out I have some family connections after all, and may get a job with the Downtown Biz, who goes around painting over grafitti or something? I'm not sure, but apparently they're likely to pay better and give me hours BEFORE the end of fucking July.

AND good news! West Jet has a sale going on now, which will reduce my air fare from ~$800 to ~$530 after taxes! The sale ends on the 23rd, though, so I have to convince my mom to front me the money and also that it's cool to miss three extra days of school (the sale's only effective for flights leaving on Monday, Tuesday or Wednsday) and then I'll just transfer all my paychecks to her until it's paid off. I tried getting my dad to, but he said he can't because he has no money. And there's a tiny problem of my dad likely being in Regina for RCMP training in September. This means I have to talk to Holly (who I would rather go with anyway) and ask her if she could get off work for the 8th and 9th and maybe 10th and go to Seattle with me. Since Granny Jo will be up there to take care of Aiden for those few days. I can't talk to her now though, since she's out in a ship in the middle of nowhere (somewhere by Alaska, haha) for her work and she'll be there for some time, I gather. It's ridiculous and there's a lot of variables, but this is really looking like it's going to happen. I have to look up a few more prices, for the Clipper and stuff, and then we'll see where we're at. I also need to ask Joe if he's going, because if he is, I could buy him his concert ticket, since I need to buy two so my mom knows I'm not going alone. I hate overprotective parents. It's annoying. But anyways.

Yay I'm writing the next fanfic chapter now. It's a bit of a different view. I mean, no it isn't. But we're talking new characters being added, and another subplot. Hope it turns out okay. Hope this whole damn thing works out. THE END IS IN SIGHT! I don't know what in the world I'm going to do once I'm done. Probably start another haha. We'll see. I actually find this one more fun to write because it ISN'T fluff-happy. Those are fun to write (but more to read) too, but I don't know...they seem so superficial or something. You don't get a sense of the characters in them. You know?

So I bought The Birthday Massacre - Walking With Strangers and Shinedown - Sound of Madness. The girl at HMV was really friendly. I took an immediate liking to her, but that's probably the last time I'll ever see her :p. I'm always so surprised when I encounter someone nice working somewhere. I totally wish I'd gotten a job at HMV *pouts*. Anyways, and now there's Angels Fall First AND Apocalyptica's Worlds Collide there with the 2 for $25 sale, and I WANT THEM SO BAD. But I can't afford it! I can't afford anything! *wails* Maybe I'll secretly keep part of my paychecks to myself, while giving the majority to my mother to pay off this Seattle stuff. Yeah, that sounds like a good plan heh.

I'm going to start meetings with my parents' financial advisor soon, and he'll help me work out plans for university and moving away and stuff. Hopefully he can help.

OMG PROACH'S NEW ALBUM IS GOING TO BE RELEASED AUGUST 26th!!

Currently Listening: Stop Looking/Start Seeing by Papa Roach

Hit or miss, fuck or fight,

It's time to live your life.

Go ahead, I know I'm right,

I'm gonna lay it on the line.

Put yourself in my shoes,

Would you stand up for your rights?

Line 'em up, and knock 'em down,

I'm not running scared tonight.

koorikooroo

I FINISHED MY NIGHTWISH PORTRAIT!

You will get a scan of it in a couple days once my parents are home with the new scanner.

With this done, I'm going to do Raine Maida next, and then I want to do full-page portraits of each individual in Nightwish ^.^

I love this band so much, it's unhealthy. But I could never be one of those people who like...chases the band around town or whatever. I know that would be creepy for them, and I would feel like I was invading their space and privacy, which I don't like to do. That's pretty much the same reason I didn't bother Papa Roach in February 2007 when I saw them. It's like completley drilled into me - don't invade others' space.

So I was reading this article about Nightwish, and it made me sad :(. Because they were talking about obsessive fans and stuff, and how it bothered them, and then Anette kept talking about how she's thought sometimes she just wanted to throw in the towel and quit and stuff. The reason this bothers me is because I've have harboured doubts that "new era" Nightwish will make it. I keep getting this weird feeling that Anette's going to quit, and whenever I think that, I get sad, because I really, really don't want them to break up. I don't think a band has ever meant as much to me as Nightwish does. Yes, not even Papa Roach. PRoach can't make me cry. In fact, I'm pretty sure Nightwish is the only band whose music can make me cry on a regular basis. OH wait, not true. After Memere died, the Our Lady Peace songs "Picture" and "Are You Sad?" could always reduce me to tears. Though I had just lost a person who played a key role in my childhood, so I was a bit oversensitive. But I mean, Nightwish is the only band that can make me cry now, when nothing's going wrong or anything. It's not a bad thing, either, by any means. Sometimes I keep things in too much and I need to let it out.

But anyways, I am desperately hoping that Nightwish doesn't split up until they're too old to rock out anymore. I'm also hoping that I'll still love them by that point.

OMG I figured out what I want as a tattoo! So we'll see if I still want the same thing in a year, and then if I do, I'll get it. Why the hell not, right? It's not anything Nightwish either, so don't even go thinking I'd be so dumb as that. If I ever want it removed then I could just go and get it taken off.

And well, I guess I'm done here for today. Back home on Saturday, to pick up my writing again ^.^.

Currently Listening: A Story About a Girl by Our Lady Peace

Are you waking up slowly?

You're nothing but lonely.

Are you waking up holding,

Holding your breath?

And are you looking for something?

I promised you one thing:

I promise I'll always, always be there.

Blahhhh blah blah

Sorry, I know I'm a vile person for not keeping my promise. I got tired and fed up because nothing was coming out how I wanted to, so I went and started drawing instead. I am 2/5 of the way done my portrait :p.

So I posted the next chapter just now. Re-writing the following and I'll post that up if it's done before I'm too tired to keep writing. And if it isn't, then I broke my promise and should probably go and harm myself in some way to repent. Or just apologize. We'll see.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who gets this, but you know when you listen to a song, and this one verse or the chorus or something just really stands out and you can picture exactly in your mind who you would dedicate it to? That keeps happening to me. Is that good? Or bad?

So, with that, I'll see you in a week or so!

Currently Listening: Boy by Our Lady Peace

Just when you think you're done,

The war can never be won.

I'll be there to pick you up,

And dust you off,

And bring you home,

And make you feel alive.

EDIT: HA! SUCCESS! Enjoy the shitty chapter, because it is shit shit shit. I am very disappointed with myself.

YAY!

I GOT THE JOB! XD XD XD

The interview was really not hard at all, and the lady was really friendly and she just called now (about 4 hours following the interview) and told me that she was going to hire me!

SQUEE! So I'm hoping for full-time during the summer, as that was what I told her, but we'll see. Part-time is awesome too. She's going to give me some hours on Monday.

OMFG I AM SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED!

I will be around far less now *nods*

This was way too much fun. But also a little creepy.

Wow oh wow. Grabbed this site from somebody's LJ. And then proceeded to pair Anette and Tarja with various other people to see what their kids would look like. Well, I paired me with people first, but because of my glasses, it looked like all the kids were really, really tired with bags under their eyes :p. And plus it was SUPER CREEPY. Like mine and Emppu's baby was just O.O. A freak. Poor kid would have gotten way picked on in school. Man and mine and Jacoby's kid looks like a mutant O.o. NO I WILL NOT SHOW YOU MY FUTURE MUTANT CHILD.

The problem is virtually NO pictures of me exist without glasses (because I look horrible when I'm not wearing them) with the exception of one lonely picture from like four years ago (oh god, I look so unbelievably young in it...still blonde) that's a profile shot so you can't see my face.
Anyways, here is my kid with Raine.


*wanders off to pair up Shanel, Chantal, Sarah and Jessica with random celebs saved in My Pictures*

Currently Listening: Revenge by Papa Roach

Remember the girl abused with forks, knives and razorblades?

She finally left him, had enough of her man's rage.

Band-aids covered her scars, she left him bloodied.

Beat his ass with a bat. Face sunk in like silly putty.

This song is so completely kick ass. You know, I found this out long after I got Infest, but it's a continuation from one of their previous underground songs called Liquid Diet, in which Coby tells us (what I would assume to be, since I think he said it was once) the true story about this guy who beats on his wife with *points up to the quote she used* forks, knives and razorblades. So then they made this song, which isn't a true story, but I guess kind of a "what could have happened" thing, where she kills him and then is on the run. But the best part of the song is definitely the chorus. "It's alright, we're in love. Can't live with or without."

Infest is really an awesome album. I remember when I got Janice to finally start listening to some of their old stuff, and she said she wouldn't be able to stand the rapping, but when she heard Between Angels and Insects, and liked the message behind it, she found that over time, you don't even realize he's rapping. It's true, because you listen to the lyrics and you attach yourself to the lyrics and not necessarily how they're sung. Funny thing is when I first got the album, the only song I couldn't stand was one of the two (though one of those two is admittedly a hidden track) completely non-rap songs. I love it now though, but at the time I didn't.

Oh you totally gotta check out Binge by PRoach. Awesome song. Awesome.

Hiya!

I attempted to write more fanfic.

IT TURNED OUT LIKE POO.

So I erased it and am starting again. Look for it tomorrow night, but I might put it up tonight if I get a huge burst of inspiration.

By the way, I have done research regarding police line-ups (consisting of like...three websites + CSI haha), so I'm writing it the best I can. Well it isn't like you actually see it from Anette's perspective anyway. But regarding the rules and whatnot. GAH! You'll see what I mean when you read it.

So I have an interview at Dollarama for tomorrow morning O.O. I'm going to try not to hyperventilate or go into a nervous fit. PLEASE LET ME GET THIS JOB PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. If I get it, and if I get full-time, I will still be able to go see Nightwish. And plus, if I have most of the money, I'm willing to bet that my dad will pay any amount missing so long as I pay him back (which I would of course do. I'm honest like that).

Also, I was thinking last night about one of Paige's comments from the undergrad awards, when she said that I could be really forward and outgoing, and that it all emerged in about Germany. I honestly didn't think I was any more outgoing than usual in Europe. But then it occured to me that Paige never knew me before the Europe trip. In fact, she likely completely overlooked me, which is fine and exactly what I aim for. I guess it's probable that even to Chantal I wasn't anything more than myself, because Chantal (along with Shanel, Jessica, Sarah and a few others) has seen me in hyperspazzy state, and also probably at my craziest. She's also seen me in likely one of my bitchiest states. But Paige hasn't seen that side of me at all. The most she saw of me was in Lit class, after all, where I never spoke up (I never do in any class if I can help it) and only really talked to Tina and Ally. And Angie. And of course one can't be too hyperspazzy in class.

So I guess this just really showed me that I am a completely different person when I'm around people I know. I never really thought about it before, but I guess it's true. And also probably why people are so damn surprised when they happen to witness one of these occurrences.

Oh man, if I do get to see Nightwish this fall, I'm totally taking videos this time. And pictures, of course. Sorry, thoughts of possibly going to that concert sometimes filter in randomly.

I went to see the dental specialist today about my wisdom teeth. I'm getting them pulled on August 29th. I'm doing the anesthetic thing. He said it won't really be that I'm asleep, I just won't remember anything. He also said I probably won't get sick, which is good. And that I'd be able to eat normal food after about three days. I'm still totally freaked out, since I really don't want to get them pulled and I wish I didn't have to. Why oh why did I have to get my dad's jaw? *sighs*

Learned how to play Phantom of the Opera, so that makes me happy! And my mom bought me a bunch of art supplies. My project for the week her and Dallas are gone and I'm staying with my dad & co. is a Nightwish portrait. I am going to put everything into this one, for real. After that, I'm doing a portrait of Raine Maida by request.

OH! One last thing! Opeth is coming to Winnipeg, and Jeanette wants to go with me! So if the tickets aren't too expensive, I'll for sure go! I don't know them too well, but what I've heard, I've liked, plus the concert's at the Garrick and so therefore at the best venue this city has to offer. Plus you can't go to a concert and not enjoy yourself.

Haha someone on Youtube was saying that when Nightwish comes backs, it's probable that they'll go to the MTS Centre. First of all, they sure as hell better not go to there since it sucks. Second of all, they barely sold out under 800 seats, and the smallest concert size at the MTS Centre is 2500. Considering bands have to pay taxes (supposedly extra high in Winnipeg) on every seat they don't sell, I find it highly highly doubtful they'll ever go there. Which is excellent news. It's so much nicer to have them at an intimate venue anyway, you know? At the MTS Centre, Anette wouldn't be able to reach down in the middle of a song and shake hands, and Emppu wouldn't be able to hold his guitar out for people to strum.

AND OMG EMPPU WINKED AT ME! *dies* ME! IT WAS ME! Ahhhh!

Sometimes that happens too, where I'll just randomly have a memory from the concert pop up and get super happy.

Shanelly, when you said that Anette winked at us, did you mean US?! O.o Because that would be way too awesome for words. WAYYY too awesome.

And as I leave, I watched the Rock Werchter Nightwish performance and I almost melted when I heard Anette's French. SOOOO ADORABLE. And Sleeping Sun is so stupendous...shivers up the spine, man.

Currently Listening: Happy Birthday by The Birthday Massacre

I think my friend said,

"Don't forget the video."

I think my friend said,

"Don't forget to smile."

"You're a murder tramp, murder tramp,"

I think he said.

"You're a murder boy, birthday boy,"

I think I said.

Perhaps you might care?

Hey guys. News.

I'm leaving on Saturday and will be gone for a week+. So to make up for the lack of fanfic updates lately and the fact that I won't be here next week, the next time I update, I will be posting TWO chapters. So don't forget to scroll down a bit more. I don't know when they'll be posted, but before Saturday, obviously.

This is my brain at 4 AM. (Not the Our Lady Peace song.)

So...this is my 71st post. I will have a "surprise" for ya'll for my 100th post ^.^. But don't get your hopes up, because you'll probably be let down.

ANYWAYS.

Youtube Insight is one of THE most interesting things I have found lately. But I'm a statistics nerd. Seriously, you can see which countries your videos are popular in and how people discovered them, the age ranges of people viewing, how many males vs. females. And then you can break it down by country and see in that one country how people found your videos, and demographics, and if you go to the overview, you can see which of your videos got the most views in that country. Seriously, it distracted me for like an hour. Super interesting. I wish I could Insight other people's videos, that would be AWESOME. I have a few videos really popular in Finland you know *feels special*. And Sweden *feels specialer*. That would be Alyson Avenue and my Nightwish video, along with the one that's highest in every country, Black Eyed Peas feat. Papa Roach. In Italy, my What About Brian video actually is the most popular, though. Surprisingly.

So anyways, my videos are most popular in Canada (which kind of goes without saying - my friends view them, plus all the Canadian bands I have tend to attract a Canadian audience), followed by the States, Finland, Germany, the U.K., Italy, Hungary and some other country, but I can't remember which.

You know, I was just thinking about how I never think of Hungary, and I never thought about Switzerland either. It's just so small and...neutral. But then I went there and it's one of my brightest memories from the Europe trip. Everything seemed vivid and clean there, or at least where we went. Seriously, it was like the colours were brighter and the air was healthier or something. I've never seen a city so clean as Lucerne. It was absolutely wonderful. I really want to go back to Switzerland one day. Plus the people were really polite and friendly (except other tourists, naturally), and the only other place where the vast majority of people were friendly was London. Not all of them were.

Germany, Switzerland and the U.K. were the nicest countries. Though the German drivers scared me (not as much as the Italian ones). And everything was messed up in London, which was pretty freaky, just because it would be so easy to get hit crossing the street because you looked the wrong way. But you know you have a touristy city when you have to write on the street itself which way to look before crossing. Haha. You know, it's really weird. Most of my experiences in London were shitty (having to wait 4 hours at the train station because our bus was stuck in traffic, the hotel room with the leaky ceiling and the radiator on way too high, the roommates (except Chantal), getting lost for most of the afternoon), and yet it was my favourite city. I saw the HOTTEST guy in my LIFE there though. Maybe not in my life, but he was SO HOT OMG. Chantal might remember me almost melting into a puddle on the sidewalk. Haha.

So anyways, I want to travel Europe. Of course have a home somewhere, but I really want to hit as many countries as I can, and actually get a chance to SEE them and see different cities in them. I'm pretty much done with Italy, though I might go back to Florence because of the awesome marketplace thing and all the leather stuff. Should go to Milan too. I must go back to Germany and hit up Berlin and Hamburg at the very least. Definitely go for a proper visit to Frankfurt, and go to Munich again. Naturally Sweden, Finland and Norway all go without saying, and perhaps I could meet some long-lost Norwegian relatives, aha. I really want to go to Portugal and Spain, I have to go back to Switzerland and Austria. I could do without France. But really, going back anywhere over there would be absolutely great. On my own conditions and not having to leave every place after max 2 nights, sit on a bus much of the time, do all the touristy things and stay in a lot of really shitty hotels. And also have a decent amount of money. I'm pretty sure I had the least money of everyone there.

By the way, my dad really liked his knife. Said I was the first person to buy a knife for him. I don't think I mentioned this because it was a trivial thing considering the overpowering disappointment that was my birthday (which still has not stopped disappointing me). I got only two real presents of actual value to me around my birthday, which would be Children of Men and 30 Rock from Janice and House Season 3 + 30 bucks from my Grandma. Nana gave me some random amount of money, I think it was $38? Money's not as much fun to open and doesn't last as long though, as much as I appreciate it. My mom ordered me some books, which arrived the day after my birthday, but one of the books I'd already bought the day before with the $25 gift card my dad got me for Chapters (yes, that is ALL he got me. Some thought put into that). She also ordered me a Nightwish hoodie and Nightwish shirt, which arrived early this week. She says there's something else coming, but it's "obscure" and won't be here for another two weeks. She got me Zodiac, previously viewed, on my actual birthday though. Jeanette got me my eyebrow piercing last Saturday. I didn't get anything from my friends, except a card from Sarah (which I appreciated. Thank you, Sarah *grins*). Granny Jo just got me the usual random shit I'm not going to use. Since what she buys me is always a replica of what she buys all her other grandkids, despite the fact that I'm 9 years older than the oldest of the others.

I guess what disappoints me the most about my birthday is the fact that it didn't matter to anyone. Dad's family didn't remember. My dad got me a fucking $25 gift card which he likely picked up the day before. Luke and Regan didn't get me anything, didn't wish me a happy birthday either, even though they must have remembered. Considering their youngest is born the next day, and their second on the 18th. Plus my dad chose that day to make me feel like complete shit. It's just in such glaring contrast with what my birthday's been in the past, I guess. Even last year's. At least I felt like I mattered for a day last year. And this year I didn't.

Thank god I had my mp3 player, is all I have to say. Since I left. I just left the house and everyone who was there and walked for like an hour, and I didn't give a fuck that no one knew where I was. Because I'm sure they didn't even notice I was gone.

So enough of that. Can you tell that I just spew whatever pops into my head when it's 4 in the morning? You know, in Europe it's 11 in the morning.

I've been getting really bad insomnia these last few days, which kind of sucks, but it's fine since it's summer holidays. I just wish I could be inspired to write something. Anything. At all.

I'm just so damn apathetic.

Though I was super bummed that I missed the Rock Werchter livestream today. I KNEW that it would be on today, but then my mom informs me that we had to go out for supper, so I missed it. And so far it doesn't look like anyone recorded it, but someone, please tell me that someone did. Someone must have! I'm just too impatient. I really want to see that Nightwish show. My strong desire to see them again has grown epic amounts in the last little while. I think it may be because I've been feeling, like I said, apathetic, and down, glum and moody and bored all the fucking time, and I want something to matter. Nightwish always matters :). Even when they're one of the only things that does. Oo, them and that one Within Temptation song and that one Rammstein song. Yes, that's what matters right now. I HATE BEING IN THIS MOOD. HATE HATE HATE. MURDER STAB DIE.

Oh god, speaking of music, I was looking up Swedish bands last night, and I stumbled across Lillasyster. I don't like most of their stuff, there's a couple songs that caught my attention that I will download, but generally it's too screamy and not rhythmy enough for me, and the only band I like that consists primarily of screaming is Children of Bodom, and that's because it's the best angry music EVAR, and also has great melody. Sorry, my brain is doing that easily-distractable thing that it does at this hour of night. So anyway, you absolutely must check this out. I laughed so much. It's funny, don't you think? I like their version more (though that shouldn't come as a surprise, given my natural musical inclination). I have nothing against the original, it's nice too. I just prefer this one. It's still funny though, especially if you listen to their other, Swedish, stuff. I wonder if they did it as a joke or because they really enjoy the song. Haha, Swedish metallers who like that song so much so as to do a cover. Guys at that. I giggle.

Woah woah woah woah. You really want a laugh? Then click this link instead. I like the other version of the song I linked you to better, but this video is frickin' hilarious. I just just just discovered it. WHY HAVE I NOT LOOKED UP COVERS TO THIS SONG BEFORE? Ahh, the hilarity of it all.

That song is going to be in my head all week now though. Damn.

And also, it's nearing 5, so I should go.

Yes, it takes a long time for me to write a blog entry. Again, the easily-distactable mind. First I'm Photoshopping, then looking for brushes online, but since I'm online I figure I should go to Youtube, where I get all distracted by Insight, and then I'm like, "OMG I should write about this in one of my blogs!" so I do, and then I remember this song I wanted to tell people about, so I have to go on Youtube and find the link, which leads me to another link, which leads me to more Youtube. Youtube is an evil, evil, evil...something evil. It's like a drug.

I also started another portrait. Worked on it for three hours tonight, but there's something completely wrong and it's really bugging me and I can't pinpoint what it is. But anyways, I'll post a pic when it's done.

Currently Listening: Never Said It by Papa Roach

You can't ignore that he wants you.

He sat you down and he taught you,

And you obeyed every rule that he made

'Cause he bought you.

Now he owns you.

YES! I DOWNLOADED THIS SONG AGAIN! It's still just as awesome as I remember it. I cannot believe I forgot about it for so long, but it's easy to forget about bonus tracks that you don't have when all your songs in your library by that artist were ripped from your CDs, and you have all their CDs. I want to listen to it obsessively on repeat. It is THAT awesome. I don't do that with just any song you know, just Amaranth, Not Coming Home and Ohne Dich. And Never Said It, now. NYGAHHH *huggles it to tiny little pieces*.

Oh dude, and Papa Roach's Stone Temple Pilots cover of Sex Type Thing is amaaazing. Yes, I want what's on Jacoby's mind. *dies*

This is where we're at.

I re-wrote the "About" page for my fanfic. Please go read it.

I also took the time to write a full plot summry, from beginning to end, of what has happened and will happen in the story. Up 'til now, I knew what I wanted to have happen in my head, but in writing, it's a lot more permanent. There will likely not be anymore asking for opinions on what you'd like to have happen in the plot. This is good too, because it means this won't be one of those interminable fanfics that one day the author gets sick of writing and lets it sit, unfinished, with all the loose ends hanging out.

I find it hard to believe that I've been writing it since January. That's the longest writing commitment I've had. Sadly, I'm running out of the will to write it, but we're past halfway done, and I'm sure I'll get that writing mood back again in the near future.

As for my other projects? Well I've still not started my Brian and Laura video, nor the video for Nancy. The other Nightwish fanfic I started is sitting there without inspiration. I've all but given up on my drawing tablet, I STILL don't have a job, and at this point I'm just going to apply at McDonald's. The Nightwish icons haven't gained in numbers since whenever I wrote that I last made some. There's 20 Anette, 8 Emppu and 3 Marco ones. I haven't even started the Jukka and Tuomas ones, nor the full group ones, and it's my intention to have a sizeable amount for each member.

Well, I DID make a font the other day, with my handwriting. I'll link it sometime when I can be bothered. It's really weird to use it, but cool. It took about four hours to finish haha.

Currently Listening: Stop Looking/Start Seeing by Papa Roach

I feel the walls are closing in,

And I feel I am in danger.

My enemy is not alone,

In the mirror there's a stranger.

As I tried to break out,

My panic led to fear.

Hopeless, I am alone,

I'm afraid the end is near.

The truth doesn't always have to hurt.

To Whom it May Concern,

This has been something that has bothered me time and time again, and every single time, I just shove it back inside, but I guess I'll just finally let myself go on a rant about it.

Honestly, why must people generalize my entire generation? I'm 17, and now that you know that, you're probably not going to see any logic at all in anything I say, just because of my age. I'm going to say it anyway, though. I'm 17, and I know this might come as a shock, but I don't do drugs. Crazy, right? I haven't even tried pot, even though I've been pressured to. Also, I don't dress like a slut, and I don't have sex with just anyone. I've never vandalized anything, unless you include pencil drawings on desks as vandalism, and I do other things besides sit at my computer. I can attest the same thing for my entire circle of friends, as well. And I'd say I have some intellect too, despite the fact that I'm not so great at math. I'm really into literature though, so do I get points for that? I can't attest the same for my friends on that, though. Which is unfortunate but true. Maybe it would help, just a tad, if our English teachers knew how to use punctuation and grammar properly. Or hell, if they even TAUGHT grammar in school now, since we've never been given a true and proper lesson on it since grade 2. I don't know, it's just a thought. It could help them at least write comprehensible essays, at the very least.

I'd totally hate to burst your bubble, by the way, but people were having underage sex in every other generation too. I'm sure that the numbers have increased, but then again, so has the population. Things are just more out in the open now, because things change. I know that's hard to grasp, and god forbid that any younger generation be different than yours (which likely has its own seedy underbelly), but it has to be accepted. Complaining that we suck won't change the fact that we will be the generation in power soon, and taking care of you when you're old and decrepit.

Personally, I would love it if the world was rainbows and kitties everywhere, and my generation and the ones following didn't have such a bad reputation to those older generations, but nothing I say is going to change that. I know that. What I don't know is why I even bother saying anything at all. Just to be writing this is a pretty big step for me, since I'm insanely shy and have a very low self-esteem.

Besides, everything's on an individual level. It would be so easy for me just to say, "Oh yeah, the grade younger me are all bitches who spread rumours," since they have spread rumours about me. I know that it's only a select few who did though, and I don't have any real issues with the majority of them. Oh, and I only know of three people who have done the "hard drugs", and I go to a high school reputed to be one of the worst for druggies in the city. Not all of us start doing heroin and having sex as soon as we go into high school. On that same note, though, there are some who start having sex in elementary school.

All that having been said, upraising plays a part in it. Likely the reason that most of the people in my generation are so attached to technology is because it's been made accessible to us our entire lives. The first people to blame are those who created all this stuff to begin with, but I'm sure most of us would agree (adults, teenagers, teeny-boppers) that it's a very nice thing, to have the internet, cell phones, mp3 players, whatever-the-fuck else. The second people to blame are the parents who let it get to the point where it controls our lives. I have a major issue with little kids getting working cell phones, for example, but I have honestly seen 7 and 8 year olds with cell phones. I think it's safe to say that those kids didn't buy them on their own, right? And if the parents don't actually make their kid get out and do something with their life, chances are that they won't. If the parents don't raise their kids with good morals, chances are that the kid's going to get into trouble. Then again, it's a fine line to tread, for a parent. You don't want to be too slack, but if you're too strict then your kid is going to rebel and get into trouble just to worry you and piss you off. I get that, though I'm not a parent myself (you see, that's one of the lessons my parents taught me: being able to envision what it's like to walk in someone else's shoes). I get how hard it could be.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that some of us have lives outside of technology, can read and understand Shakespeare and other literature without explanation (and even enjoy it), don't do drugs, and don't have underage sex. Those are the kids you never really hear anything about unless you know them personally, which is probably why it is so easy to paint this entire generation with one brush. Literacy has gone down, it's a fact, but that doesn't mean that kids who are "dumb" aren't good. Every generation has issues, ours are just more known, I guess. At least I hope.

It's very probable that I'm naive though. Honestly, I'm not a preppy goody two-shoes, haha. I'm one of the ones who dresses all in black and manages not to be "emo", who sits in the back of the class, who gets called a "fucking weirdo" far more often than I'd like to admit. I guess they don't know how to react to the fact that I like stuff that's not "mainstream". But that's a rant for another time.

Sincerely,
A Fed-Up Teenager.

C/P-ed my post from LJ.
Thank you and goodnight.

Currently Listening: Hello Oskar by Our Lady Peace

He'll build a bridge then walk around.
Don't ever call him dumb.
He's not that bright,
He's not that bright.
He's just not himself.

I should really just call this my Nightwish blog, shouldn't I.

WARNING! WARNING!

This is a long post.

With lots of Nightwishness and links.

Mentions of other great bands as well.

And generally a lot of rambling.

And a pretty big rant.

Happy Canada Day my dear Canadian friends!

Go and enjoy the fireworks and festivities on this joyous occasion where we celebrate our country! I'm going to Osbourne Village with Jeanette where we shall have muchos fun listening to some bands perform at the street festival and doing this and that.

Anyways, enough about that.

I have here for you some orgasmic live performances (by different bands, so no, they are not all Nightwish aha). These aren't in order of my preference, by the way.

Number 1
Number 2
Number 3

Number 4

Number 5

Number 6

Number 7 (this one just because of the lyrics at the beginning. Diiiiirty :D)

Also, I always laugh when I watch EoaE and they start playing Phantom of the Opera and there's that girl who just starts crying and continues to cry every time the camera catches her. I can understand being very happy that they play a song that you love, I might have been so happy I almost cried if they had played She is My Sin when they were in Winnipeg (and I did have a complete spaz when they played Dead to the World, no crying though), but honestly. Guess it was concert euphoria. And then it goes back to the same two girls later and that one girl is still all teary-eyed, but the blonde girl next to her is all like...having an orgasm. I always laugh there too. But in one of those videos I linked you to up there, there's a lot of orgasm-y faces in there (that might be because the song itself is just completely orgasmic and omg). I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't laugh, it just looks so ridiculous to me.

So I was watching an interview with Tarja (and I want to take this time to say that hers, Anette's, Tuomas' and all of them, their broken English is the most adorable thing EVAR. These cute little grammatical errors all over the place *heart melts*) and the interviewer asked her how she would feel if she were to play a festival that Nightwish were to play. And she says, "Woah, that'll be nice" which in itself, it's believable, the way she says it. But then she continues on to say, "I don't have anything against that, come on," and she sounds like she's totally faking the little laugh that follows and the smile and her voice is at this pitch and you can totally tell she's lying :p. That's a bit of an awkward question, but I've actually wondered the same thing. What WOULD they do if they were ever on the same festival bill? Would they go to huge measures to avoid each other? Or would they finally reconcile things at least a smidge, and let the ex-Nightwish singer and the current Nightwish singer meet? Since Anette's already stated that she would love to meet Tarja...

Actually I could totally picture the guys and Tarja avoiding each other at all costs and then Anette hunting Tarja down on her own, just to meet her. Haha that could totally be an interesting conversation. *resists the urge to make another little script scenario*

So anyway, the interviewer goes on to say that he interviewed Tuomas a few weeks before and he said he wouldn't comment on Tarja's new album, so was that a reciprocal agreement. And Tarja says they have no agreements blahblahblah. Her comment on the Nightwish album? "Exciting". lol. Says she listened to it a long time ago, has heard songs "in the radio" (again, the English *dies*), and that's it's "exciting". I always find it very interesting when an interviewer asks her about Nightwish stuff, because it seems to get a bit awkward, as it rightfully should. I read an interview an eon and a half ago with her and the interviewer asked her her thoughts on the new Nightwish singer. Tarja's reply was to laugh (and pound on the table, drawing odd looks from the people around them. I think that's what the author of the article wrote...) and say that she was the last person to ask that to.

I do wonder though. I also wonder whether they read each other's interviews/gig reviews. Damn it all, the things I'll never know.

What's a piss-off is that Tarja still seems quite adamant to stay the fuck away from North America. Oh okay, go down to South America, but you couldn't just come up North, just for a bit? Why does she refuse to hit this continent? Is it really so bad here? Is it really that different? Because I didn't find it too different from Europe, you know. Other than the fact that people are a bit more polite here, for some things. (Can't speak for the States, but Canada at least. Then again, we're apparently known for being overly polite...best not let anyone meet the backwoods Albertians, eh? And of course the fucker who shouted "Anette sucks" at the Montreal concert. Seriously, I totally want to kick that guy in the balls so hard he turns into a girl. But I bet he's Quebecois, and they're expected to be mean.)

Kidding, kidding, don't kill me, any Quebecois people.

So does anyone know what the fuck happened to Rammstein? No news for like...a year. Not that they're going into the studio, nor that they're touring, nothing.

But doesn't Till just have the fifth loveliest eyes in the world? The other four spots filled by Anette, Tuomas, Tarja and Jacoby, of course.

And I sent off two questions to Tuomas for this month's Nightmail. I have quite a few for Anette for next month, though, and many for Emppu when his turn comes as well. Had none for Jukka, haven't thought of any for Marco yet. But anyways, let's hope my questions get picked! But I doubt they will *sighs*.

Oh my, I just watched the Face Culture interview (though it is in many parts) from 2007 sometime with Anette, and I have reflected on the fact that it must be a Scandinavian women thing to talk so damn much hahaha. I mean, Tarja and Anette elaborate so damn much with their answers. Not saying it's a bad thing, because it can definitely be good, right? It's just amusing. And also "I've never copiated anyone" OMGGGG! So so so adorable *huggles her*. I do not for the life of me understand how some people totally loathe her. I can understand disliking her voice, but it isn't her fault Tarja got kicked out, nor that she was hired, nor the voice she was born with, and seriously she is the most likable musician EVAR (with the exception of Emppu, of course).

I also have this weird hunch that she is pregnant now. Just speculation based on some recent Youtube videos. We shall see, it's possible (probable even) that I'm way off-base with that.

So then I was watching this interview with Tuomas (the one mentioned in the Tarja interview above) (it's like I was just telling Chantal, I keep on feeding my Nightwish obsession. It's getting pretty bad at this point, though I know I'm far from the worst fan[atic]) and isn't he just so cute? He's all kinda shy-seeming, though that mention of "problems recently" worries me. NIGHTWISH CAN NEVER SPLIT UP! I say so and so it must be. Like what I say matters :p. Nah I'm sure they won't (*knocks on wood*), there's bound to be arguments when you spend so much time together. Oh my god, I would totally have gone on a homicidal rampage if I had to spend like 4 weeks+ on a crammed bus with the same people day in and day out. Oh and also, "I was browsing our site the other day." I wonder how often they check the forums. Because the hr3 radio thing wasn't announced on the main news page was it? Meaning that he read about it in what? The Dark Passion Play Tour Topic? Or the Nightwish in Media one? I can't remember where it was discussed. But whatever, it's just totally weird that they just lurk (says a lurker). I wonder if they've ever checked the Backstage Thread O.o. They would likely be severely disturbed by some of the stuff that goes on there. I know I am.

Pff and to think that before the existence of that thread, everyone called the Anetteholics and Emppuholics the worst on the board. The Backstage Thread is like over half filled with just Tuomasholics drooling over pictures of him. It's why I don't visit that thread even when I'm lurking. It gets pretty boring. Occasionally I'll check in and laugh, like today when I read the mod warnings. I laughed because as obsessed with this band as I may be, I know that I will never warrant a warning for any of my comments, likely because I'm far too shy to ever voice any, that and I don't really think that way about any of them. Sure, it's my opinion that Tuomas is very hot, and Jukka too, but I don't think they're as hot as Jacoby, and I don't make fangirly posts/comments/whatevers about Jacoby either. It's pointless and annoying. Write something with substance, wouldja? When I was really into Tuomas, I wrote that story about Holopainism a few months back that was posted here. That is more substance than "OMT HE IS SOOOO HOT! *drools* I TOTALLY WANT TO BE HIS SEX SLAVE LOLZ" over and over again after every damn pic that's posted. Because we didn't hear your opinion the first time.

Of course I'm prone to little outbursts of "EMPPU IS ADORABLE *melts*" and stuff, in my own personal blog mind you, but it's just so easy to be a hypocrite, haha. But really, I'm not too bad for the fangirlish outbursts, am I?

Sorry, I'm just writing as I think. I'm very bored.

Hmm, you see my Twitter widget, eh? That could be interesting, if I remember about it. It seems to make the page really slow though, so it's probable that it'll be removed. We'll see.

Also, angry sixteen-year-old Twilight fangirls make me laugh. By their sheer stupidity, as well as the fact that they can't balls up enough to NOT post anonymously. Because there's this Twilight parody that had me in absolute stitches (I've not read the book, don't really intend to, but I am going to see the movie, merely because Rachelle LeFevre is in it), and so this person goes on there and anonymously posts that it's omg so rude and blah blah. And then comes back (same IP apparently), again anonymous, states that they're sixteen and then gives absolutely everyone in my age group a bad name with their stupidity. Man. Seriously, don't post a comment defending your favourite book in a place where a bunch of haters are. It's like me going onto an anti-Anette site and saying, "omg, you guys are so mean, Anette's the greatest, obviously, because look at how much Dark Passion Play has sold. And you aren't entitled to have your own opinion, because this is a fact." Come on, I don't even think that. There will always be people who hate Anette and "new" Nightwish, who are going to slam her, because that's what you do to the things you don't like, just as there will always be a bunch of people who hate Twilight and think it's shit, and they will make fun of it. ACCEPT IT GODDAMMIT. You saying that you like it and that it was listed by the New York Times and whatever else isn't going to change anyone's mind, nor stop them from mocking it, just as telling rabid Tarjaholics over and over that DPP sold so much, so obviously Anette is a good singer and should be loved and respected, won't make them love her. At least all the Twilight-hating is pretty much consolidated in one place, but everywhere Nightwishy with many people, you're gonna find someone who hates Anette, even if it's a fangroup for her or something. I hate shit-disturbers.

So this leads me into another rant. These adults, who are so much better educated than us young and pathetic teenagers, are perfectly cool with acting just like a teenager. I admit, I thought some of the replies to the commenter were funny, and some deserved, but okay, why don't you generalize an entire age group based on this one person and maybe some other idiots you know that are the same age. For my part, I really do enjoy Macbeth, the actual play, and yes, I can understand it without any explanations. I've read a lot of classics; Pride & Prejudice, Moby Dick, Roots, To Kill a Mockingbird, so on and so forth, and I found them enjoyable (actually, I didn't like Moby Dick. Booooring). Also, it seems I know a fuck of a lot more about punctuation and grammar than a hell of a lot of adults, including English teachers. And yes, it's obvious that literacy and IQ has gone down in recent generations, in North America at least (Europe is like miles ahead of us), and that's a fact, but you know, there is still a good percentage of us who do know our stuff and can tell the good from the bad. I'd like to think I have at least mediocre writing skills, and that my vocabulary is pretty expanded for someone of my tender young age of 17 years. But you know, what do I know? I'm just a teenager, who's never read the classics, because I'm in high school so I wouldn't have any interest in doing so, and so I have no knowledge of anything of importance. I can't read or write worth a damn because of my generation, I'm a delinquent who does drugs, smokes, drinks, parties, vandalizes and all that fun stuff, and I wouldn't know quality literature, film or music if it fucked me up the ass.

Right?

GAHHHD it's just such a piss-off. Every single time I see this occurring, I get pissed off.

Moving on now, The Birthday Massacre is a fantastic band. And Canadian too! Check out their video for Looking Glass! It's what got me listening to them, because I saw the video on MuchLoud. See now, THAT chick has a pop voice, or at least far more so than Anette, but it works! I think it works. I like her voice. I also like the music, it's kind of weird and indescribable really. But that video is totally awesome, even if the message takes a bit of thinking. I think it's about how we mask ourselves and hide how we're feeling all the damn time, and everyone does, and I honestly don't know :P. But the lead singer Chibi is absolutely awesome and hilarious haha. I mean just in general. I totally and completely hope that they hit up pathetic little Winnipeg on some tour of theirs. When they aren't touring with Mindless Self Indulgence, because I don't care for MSI.

Can't swim for two months because of what I had done on Saturday (I'm not saying what because it's fun to make Shanel curious), so that's an excellent excuse NOT to go out to the lake with my dad and Aiden, because I don't really like the lake; it's yucky and too far from civilization and I find it more stressful than enjoyable. Admittedly, it has some fun stuff to it, and it's nice to be able to go for a walk and not have to bump into anyone, talk to anyone, or anything, but generally I just don't like it. But I'm always expected to go. But I'm not this year. Maybe not ever again, I don't know. Maybe I'll only go when I want to, meaning when I have my intermediate or full licence (if I ever get to that point :p).

So I'll leave this poor blog alone now and go post one on Myspace...and LJ. Ohhh shit I completely forgot about that Tuomas/Anette fic I started! I should probably get on that. That poor community is all morte right now though. :(

Ahh well, a healthy round of applause to you if you actually read all that, since I don't really expect anyone to.

Currently Listening: She is My Sin (live Montreal 2007) by Nightwish

A sin for him,
Desire within, desire within.
A burning veil for the bride too dear for him.
A sin for him,
Desire within, desire within.
Fall in love with your deep dark sin.