Basically, the reason the fanfic's on hiatus is something I don't really want to talk about. It isn't anything SUPER MAJOR OMG MY FAMILY IS FALLING APART AND I'M TURNING EMO, just something that happened that isn't allowing me to feel so great, nor creative. I've been in worse places than I am right now, but where I am puts me in a bad mood, which is not the mood to write and get even angrier and more disappointed with myself. To absolutely anyone reading this: I am not going to tell you what happened, so don't bother asking. It isn't important, what's important is where it put me.
So I guess that's the semblance of an explanation any of you fanfic readers are going to get. I do feel bad for this, because I know I get disappointed when the authors of any fanfics I'm reading decide to take a break or just give up on the story, and I don't like making people disappointed, but at the same time, it's kind of a relief for me. It was getting harder and harder for me to write it and I had the constant nagging feeling that the quality was suffering significantly, and I still think it does. I can't get the words out of me properly anymore, even though I have the thought and I know what I want to say. It was really getting to be disappointing for me, that I just cannot write as good as I would like to, and in that sense, it felt like I was kind of letting everyone reading it and myself down.
Maybe after this break, the quality will go up and life will be going better for me. I hope so at least. I hope I'll be able to have another chapter written by the first week of September. I do like writing, I do still like this story I've started and where it's going, and I'm not going to give up on it. But since this thing happened, I just can't think enough to write right now. *sighs* I hope you understand what I'm saying.
Currently Listening: Let You Down by Three Days Grace
So I guess that's the semblance of an explanation any of you fanfic readers are going to get. I do feel bad for this, because I know I get disappointed when the authors of any fanfics I'm reading decide to take a break or just give up on the story, and I don't like making people disappointed, but at the same time, it's kind of a relief for me. It was getting harder and harder for me to write it and I had the constant nagging feeling that the quality was suffering significantly, and I still think it does. I can't get the words out of me properly anymore, even though I have the thought and I know what I want to say. It was really getting to be disappointing for me, that I just cannot write as good as I would like to, and in that sense, it felt like I was kind of letting everyone reading it and myself down.
Maybe after this break, the quality will go up and life will be going better for me. I hope so at least. I hope I'll be able to have another chapter written by the first week of September. I do like writing, I do still like this story I've started and where it's going, and I'm not going to give up on it. But since this thing happened, I just can't think enough to write right now. *sighs* I hope you understand what I'm saying.
Currently Listening: Let You Down by Three Days Grace
I will let you down,
I'll let you down, I'll...
When you finally trust me,
Finally believe in me.
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