I FAIL AT LIFE

YUHA. It's been a little while, hasn't it? Well what's happened with me? Nothing much, I'm afraid. I've been working like crazy, I saw my dad & family for Christmas and all 'round, things have been well. There's been some moments where I've wanted to shoot myself, but I get over those and life goes on pleasantly enough. I got a new amp for Christmas. It's pretty sweet. I've also been buying an assload of stuff from HMV these days. I'm pretty sure I have at least 12 bags in my room right now.

My obsession of the month has definitely been Olivia Wilde. She's so incredibly talented. I need to get ahold of her movie "Fix". I've looked all over the place for somewhere to order it and I just can't find it ANYWHERE. Ohhh it has to be sold SOMEWHERE right?! :'(

Oh I got Sonic Syndicate's other CD Only Inhuman for x-mas! :). I was pretty pleased. They have one other CD I believe, but I'm not interested in it. They got softer once Roland joined and I like the softer sound of theirs. I've never been much into the really agressive metal. Children of Bodom being the exception, but I rarely listen to them anyway. I realized I'm still a bigger fan of rock music at the end of the day. I like metal, and I'm discovering more and more metal bands that I like, but ultimately, the more melodic sound of rock music is preferable to my ears. Less palm-muted, incredibly fast guitar. You know. But I still love me my metal bands. Nightwish, Epica, WT, COB, Sonata Arctica, Sonic Syndicate, so on and suchforth. Yeah :). I like industrial metal a lot too though, especially when it comes to male vocalists. Maybe because again, it's more melodic than typical metal. I love how metal has all the sub-categories though. You know? I think that's pretty cool. I doubt you'll find another genre with that much variety under one...figurative roof.

So this was just to hit you up and let you know that, yeah, I'm alive and doing well ^.^. I don't think anyone reads this anymore, with the exception of those who stumble across it via random search engines. I tried to write in here about a week ago but it was all "Your cookies aren't activated" when they were so I was all, "FUCK ME SIDEWAYS. THIS HAD BETTER NOT BE ANOTHER VUNDO." But it wasn't! Yay.

Currently Listening: Second Chance by Shinedown

My eyes are open wide.

By the way, I made it through the day.

I watched the world outside.

By the way, I'm leaving out today.

I just saw Hayley's comet. She waved,

Said, "Why you always running in place?

Even the man in the moon disappeared

Somewhere in the stratosphere."

It's all over.

So ends an era. Well hey, a story I've been writing for almost a year might as well count as an era.

Hard to believe it's over.

Well I might write another someday.

We'll see I suppose.

Going to finish and start my Christmas shopping today because it was payday and payday = money for presents.

OMG THE O.C. OMG. Isn't it great?

Currently Listening: Hollywood Whore by Papa Roach

Whitetrash queen, American dream.

Oh what a role model.

Throwing a fit, making a scene,

Like no tomorrow.

I love Jonsu. Lovelovelovelove. Also 38 "secrets".

O HAI. Well, if you check my LJ, I think I'll have some icons up by the end of the week ;). Icons featuring Jonsu (OF COURSE!), Anette and Simone, as well as two actresses, animated Papa Roach Hollywood Whore ones and animated House 5x05 ones. :)
I hope to be done by the end of the week, anyway. It shouldn't be too hard.

I bought The O.C. Season 2, just for Olivia Wilde being in it (I get kinda ridiculous over things/people that I am a fan of, I know) and I'm thoroughly enjoying it so far.

My Sonic Syndicate shirt arrived today! :D It's kind of big, but I'll get it taken in around the torso and sleeves and it should fit well. I was also pleasantly surprised to find two free stickers and a SS postcard with my order. That was very nice of them. The stickers are just the covers of their last two albums, "Only Inhuman" and "Love and Other Disasters". They are pretty cool though. And the postcard has a picture of the band on the front, so that's gonna go on my wall.

We had to write these rants in class and I chose to write about misjudging the soldiers who fight in wars blahblahblah (going back to the American soldiers being clalled "baby killers" after the Vietnam war). But then I volunteered to read it, and it's not like we had to stand up or anything, and as soon as I started reading, I got RIDICULOUSLY nervous. Seriously, it was absolutely terrible. I was just thinking the whole time like "STOP IT WTF". Because you know you start shaking and your voice starts shaking and you feel like you're going to throw up. And I couldn't figure out why it was such a bad attack of nervousness over this stupid thing, because I HAVE gotten better at presentations. Not EXCEPTIONALLY better, but I have improved since grade 9, and it's been a long time since I've felt that nervous, but man. So I was thinking about why I could have had that reaction and the only thing I can think of is because it's my own opinon on things, instead of like a play for Hamlet or whatever. It's like, if people mock it, they're mocking what I believe. I don't know. It was extremely unpleasant, and I regretted it almost as soon as I started. I should have given up after the second sentence and told the teacher to finish reading it :/. It was really, really bad. I hope that doesn't happen again.

Anyways.

thirty-eight secrets about yourself!
be honest, no matter what.

one ; have you ever been asked out ?
Once.

two ; where was your profile picture taken ?
(This is from Facebook) It was taken in Seattle with Marco!

three ; what's your last name ?
LeDressay.

four ; what's your current relationship status ?
Single.

five ; does your crush like you back ?
The chances of that EVER happening are slim to none. And I'm leaning toward the latter.

six ; what is your current mood ?
Bored.

seven ; what color underwear are you wearing ?
Black.

eight ; what color shirt are you wearing ?
Black and pink.

ten ; beginning of grade eight?
Um what about it? I had friends. Where did number 9 go?

eleven ; if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
A bird of some sort. Flying would be fun.

twelve ; ever had a near death experience ?
Yeah, I narrowly escaped being hit by a car downtown.

thirteen ; something you do a lot ?
Play guitar?

fourteen ; last time you went to the movies ?
A couple Saturdays ago to see Twilight (WHICH SUCKED ANUS BTW)

fifteen ; who did you copy and paste this from?
Girl in my gym class.

sixteen ; name someone with the same birthday as you ?
Courtney Cox Arquette ;)

seventeen ; when was the last time you cried?
I actually cried a little bit today but it was over something completely ridiculous O.o.

eighteen ; have you ever sang in front of a large audience ?
Once. Never, ever again.

nineteen ; if you could have one super power, what would it be ?
Mind-reading. But at will, not like having a bunch of people's thoughts attacking you all the time.

twenty ; what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes and/or smile.

twenty-one ; what do you usually order from starbucks ?
When I'm in the mood for something cold, I order a mocha frappucino, and when I want something hot, I order a cinnamon dolce latte.

twenty-two ; what's your biggest secret ?
At the moment it's...well there's a reason it's a secret ;)

twenty-three ; favorite colors ?
Black, blue, red, and sometimes also dark purple.

twenty-four ; do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows ?
Hellz yeah! When there's nothing else on, Spongebob or Fairly Oddparents or Ruby Gloom FTW!

twenty-five ; what are you eating or drinking at the moment ?
I was actually thinking of getting a Caramilk bar after I was done this, but atm nothing.

twenty-six ; do you speak any other language ?
French!

twenty-seven ; what's your favorite smell ?
Cinnamon.

twenty-eight ; have you ever kissed in the rain ?
No.

twenty-nine ; what are you thinking about right now?
I am thinking about things I shouldn't be thinking about.

thirty-one ; What should you be doing right now?
Probably writing my English essay.

thirty-two ; who was the last person that made you upset/angry ?
Genuinely angry? I'm not really sure. But just annoyed, well my mom or Shanel. One of the two :p.

thirty-three ; how often do you pray ?
I don't. Because I don't believe in RELIGION or GOD or PRAYING.

thirty-four ; do you like working in the yard ?
Not really.

thirty-five ; if you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Something cool, but I'm not sure what. I kinda like my last name.

thirty-six ; do you act differently around the person you like?
I don't think so O.o. I mean, I'm pretty sure no one knows a) that I like anyone (though now it will be common knowledge) or b) who it is. In which case, I succeed! I AM NOT GOING TO TELL YOU WHO SO DON'T EVEN ASK.

thirty-seven ; what is your natural hair color?
Blonde.

thirty-eight ; do you like your name ?
Meh.

Currently Listening: Never Too Late by Three Days Grace

This world will never be

What I expected.

And if I don't belong,

Who would have guessed it?