There's nothing like the pain I feel for you.

So you all know what happened with Anette in Brazil, eh? Where she was crying and walked off the stage at the end of TPATP? I was thinking about this, and that's the part of the song (and incidentally also the exact line) that almost always makes me cry. And maybe it just struck a profound chord with her that day, because everyone has those days where they feel very emotional and like anything can just set you to bawling. Or maybe she just got some bad news or something and so it struck her extra hard. Rumour has it that she's losing custody of her son? I hope that isn't the case, I will be incredibly sad for her if that actually happens. Just because I wrote about it in my fanfic doesn't mean I ever actually thought it would happen or ever EVER wanted it to. :(

I am horrified by the response of some people to this. I think people forget that she's just as human as the next person and she's allowed to not feel well sometimes and to just want to lay on her bed and cry all day (I get those days sometimes :p) and she's allowed to be sick or pissy or grumpy. And I really hope whatever was bothering her, if it's her voice or personal problems, goes away right away, and that's she's feeling 100% better as soon as she possibly can. Not for Nightwish nor for the fans, but for HER. So that she can feel better and happier. Because isn't it so great to just feel completely content? I wish that feeling for everyone. And I do hope for the sake of the fans that that doesn't happen again, and for the sake of the band that there isn't too much going on her life that she can't stay in it (yet again my secret doubts are welling up that she will actually stick with this band until the next album), but if they have to cancel more shows and if she has to quit the band because that's what's best for her and that's what will give her that feeling of content, then so be it and I hope that's what she does. Of course, I'd be devasted if she quit Nightwish. Completely crushed. I would cry and cry and cry. But the PEOPLE involved matter more than the music they make. Even if she'd never been in this band and if I never knew of her existence, she wouldn't deserve a divorce or losing custody of her son. She would deserve happiness in her life and contentment with how things are. And YOU deserve that, and I deserve that, but sometimes it just doesn't happen. I hope to god she can pick herself up from this and that everything falls into the right place for her and that she's happy, no matter what she has to do to achieve that.

That was a long way of saying that no matter what, she should be happy, and I hope she gets to a place of perfect contentment. :)

In that brief span of time where I met her, and that brief span of time when she acknowledged my existence at the end of the concert, I could TELL that she loves the support, that it really means something to her, that all of this means something to her, and you know that she's an incredible person with a big heart and lots of smiles. I hate to see people like that upset, especially to the point where they're crying. Shanel, if I ever see you cry of anything other than laughter, it will kill me inside. I hope you know that.

Anyways, my Nightwish stuff arrived and I'd go on about that, but the mood isn't quite right.

Hope NW's concert tonight will go splendidly.

And I hope I don't sound too weird for expressing all of that. O.o. I care far too much about people that I don't know. (It's not just bands or anything, like even random people's blogs and stuff, I get sad if they're sad.)

Currently Listening: Not Enough by Our Lady Peace

When they say you're not that strong,

You're not that weak.

It's not your fault.

And when you climb up to your hill,

Up to your place,

I hope you're well.